I'm in a space right now where I'm REALLY enjoying my writing. I remember in school I'd hear things like, "Most novelists don't really hit their stride until middle age," and as someone in my twenties I found that quite discouraging. But now that I'm coming onto 40 this year and feeling things finally start to click together, I see what they were talking about. Of course, I may turn out to be the ONLY one who thinks things are clicking, but it's still a nice feeling even if no one else agrees!
As a matter of fact, I'm feeling this sense that once I get all my current writing projects wrapped up, if none of them flies in any significant way, I may be done. I don't think I'm going to get any better than I am right now, judging by the work I've been doing this past year. I've been having a funny thought: if my writing career doesn't get off the ground with a significant success this next year or two, I am going to hook up cable TV. For many years, I've been denying myself any TV and using most of my evenings to write, but I'm now to the point where if it's not going to pay off, I'm going to start relaxing more in the evenings and watch some damn TV. That is a funny thing to say, because I've been anti-TV for so many years, but that's where my mind is starting to go.
Anyway, I feel a mid-life crisis brewing, career-wise. I've held corporate jobs for the past 16 years, but I've never taken hold in the corporate setting, and I feel like I've just been treading water while I work on my own creative projects on the side. But I'm getting quite tired of this mode, and I'm watching other people my age really come into their own with higher-paying management positions or their own successful businesses or whatever. And if my writing doesn't work out, then I've missed that boat and will need to find another boat, perhaps in some entirely different field than writing. Every single day, it seems, I ponder other possible professions, from becoming a real estate or insurance agent to opening an eBay drop-off store to going to law school. So far, nothing sounds good, but I'm not sure I can do 30 more years of what I'm now doing as a low-level corporate writer/editor, and I don't see myself climbing the corporate ladder.
So two years from now, I expect either to be self-employed as an author or attending real estate school by day and watching HBO by night...